I feel pleasantly old and stupid, deciding not to worry about who I am but how I spend my days, until I tear in the weak places like a thin, worn sheet. Back in my room I can't hear the river passing like time, or the moon emerging from the shadow of earth, but I can see the water that never repeats itself. It's very difficult to look at the World and into your heart at the same time. In between, a life has passed. - Jim Harrison, *After Ikkyu*